And we’re back!
You’ve probably noticed it. LTC has kinda sucked in 2017.
When’s the next LTC Together?
I see you aren’t posting as frequently, is everything okay?
So you won the 2016 SA Blog Awards, are you done blogging now?
I’ve had a lot of these kinds of questions come my way over the last few months. Honestly, it’s not unwarranted. I’m all for calling a spade a spade and LTC has sucked in the last 5 months.
But, there’s a reason behind it.
I’ve had a tough start to 2017 in my personal life. Instead of burdening the world with the downer that I was on, instead I decided to take some time off to figure out a few next steps and spend time with my family. I’ve only posted here and there when a surge of motivation helped me to get something out. Sitting down and writing was just not that appealing and for the longest time it was hard to admit.
Yes, I’m going through serious challenges in my personal life. Yes, it’s affecting my blog and Yes, I’ve noticed a drop in followers and engagement – all those things that you should be chasing as a blogger.
But, (to be completely honest) I don’t give a shit.
I started this blog to motivate and inspire people to live active lifestyles. I also started it to keep track of my journey with the hope that one day I can reflect on my greatest hits and even have a space for my daughter to come to and read about her crazy old man. Now, as much as I want to keep my personal life separate from this platform, my personal life is what’s been impacting my ability to get content out on LTC. So instead of forcing optimism and positivity for the sake of readers and views, I’ve just trickled out content if I was able to and put a lot of things on pause.
Thankfully, with us doing more video, Zahier has been a godsend and helped me a lot by picking up the slack and making sure that videos got made – no matter how few they were. Top lad that kid!
I’ve also been doing more solo runs. Both on road and in the mountains.
Those quiet times in the mountains have been my therapy. Hard missions that just strip you down to the core of movement and then refueling to continue this movement. Eat and Run. Being alone out there has helped me get some perspective, if not, at least to just feel present and not like a passenger watching this chapter of my life unfold. Running and going to the mountains has helped me, but dealing with my underlying issues through counselling (I have some amazing friends and family who didn’t mind me bitching and moaning) was what helped the most until finally I saw the light at the end of the tunnel.
January and February were particularly rough for me and I think bombing out in Batrun was probably a symptom of circumstance.
‘’But Your social media didn’t say anything” – you may say
Ja, well that’s because I’m not a fan of putting that kind of energy into the universe on such a public platform. LTC was created to inspire people to live active lifestyles not to make people depressed.
I also don’t believe that I was forcing positivity during my posts. Those were genuinely happy moments and good distractions with people dear to me. Forcing positivity is not the answer, but accepting that social media is a curated version of life – with filters to make it look even prettier – was still my way of trying to motivate people to get out there even when the blog posts dried up.
But, today I believe that both I and LTC are back.
I’ve always wanted to remain authentic in my storytelling and share as much as possible that is relevant to the journey from the couch to fitness. Dealing with life’s challenges is a part of that journey and it’s a reality that things won’t always be sunshine and rainbows. I’ve used my passion for the mountains to help me manage the highs and lows and am thankful for having such a strong support system around me. If anything, endurance sport has shown me is that when it gets darkest and you’ve hit a wall, if you keep your head down and keep moving you will break through and rally once again.
Let’s get at it!