The real reason I DNF’d at Batrun
Sometimes we have to hit the wall before we realize that we should’ve hit the brakes sooner…
I keep saying that I learn alot from Batrun each year. This year was no different, but it was one of the hardest lessons and probably the most brutal one I’ve had to learn because the resulting damage was not visible – it was more of an emotional one which is really hard to explain.
When it comes to the emotional side of things, I tend to struggle to really grasp what is happening to me. I think we go most of our lives thinking that we are alphas, invincible and sometimes ignoring real issues by simply burying them deep down without real acknowledgement or acceptance that maybe we need help.
At times we can be our own worst enemy…
But it’s okay. We’re human and we make mistakes. It’s how you come back from those situations, learn, apply the lessons and ultimately grow and become better. I suppose that’s what growing up is all about.
This vlog was one of the toughest for me to do. I failed at a race that I’ve been training for an entire year and in a public fashion. But if it wasn’t for that, I would’ve never learnt some really amazing lessons about myself and others:
Anxiety and mental health issues are not something to be taken lightly. I have some insight into this now and it’s been a very baring experience for me. If you have been suffering from these and similar experiences, please seek the help of a professional and talk about it.
I wish you all the best on your journey
Photo courtesy of Simon Pocock